This is my account. As you all know in my previous episode, i have stated that i am a spoilt kid. Over the years from 1999, i was a thug who just like any other who wanna make a living and to get a NAME so that people will look up to me. Yeah i know you might be wondering...is it really me? Hahaha it is me! Let me just be transparent with you guys. I was raised and brought up with a very tight discipline by my father. And the reason i am hard...working towards my goal is a result of the discipline that my father gave me. I am hard in sense of if i want to get the job done...by all means with or without, i will still do it. Along those years, after getting to know Jesus, i began to grow in Him more severely deep! I was involved in the church back in Penang for almost 9 years i was there. Actively involved in the worship team and also in the youth. Yet at the same time my spiritual life was going down the drain. Dont be surprise of the things that i going to say in just a bit.
For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain.Philippians 1:21
As i have believed Christ as my Lord and Saviour, I hold my life based on this very verse. But at the same time I was a Christian for namesake. In church serving, but in the world i was indulging in the things of the world. Get myself lost in the world. Doing the things that a youth would do. You know what i mean here. I am a HARD person. I am a steel that cant be broken. A rebellious person. I will fight for a cause which is true and right. This is me. In 2001, God called me to serve His as a fulltime church worker, but i was stubborn and did not yield myself to that calling, instead i made a deal with God... Give me 8 years then i will come and serve You. Yet God was faithful along those years. But whatever and how much money i earn, its all gone with the wind. Dont ask me how, i just dont know. By His grace i pursued my studies.Working in the morning and going to class in the night and finally Graduated with distinction. Started working with a better prospec and salary. My last position i held was an IT Engineer at Intel, Kulim. And somewhere in April 2008, my close friend offered me to join Dell, with a better salary offer. I prayed about it, and things went all perfectly but 1% out of 99.9% screwed up. I dont know what went wrong and the offer was closed to me. I did not get the Job.
So at that one fine day God encountered me and broke me into pieces, that is when i discovered what does it mean by surrendering you life totally to God. He reminded me of my 8 year contract promises! I was like "oh God. not now...i am still young." He said, "I want to use you now." So with a broken heart with the tears in my eyes... i mourned and i almost lost my mind. I was tired battling with God until one fine day i gave up and give in to His calling. on 23rd (friday) May 2008, at my cubicle in my office, I heard His voice speaking to me "RESIGN YOUR JOB TODAY ITSELF." I was like... what??? I cant hear you Lord.... oh my... already i did not get the job in Dell, and now You are asking me to resign this jod... are You crazy or something Lord... this was my exact reaction. Already i am so depressed by not getting thru the job offered by dell, now have to resign... God says "RESIGN YOUR JOB AND PACK YOUR BAGS AND GO TO THE PLACE THAT I AM GOING TO SHOW YOU." I realize that i cant run anymore. So i obeyed His word and do what He has commanded me to.
Total surrender + Total Brokenness = Total Victory.
Surrender to God totally and let God to break you and you will result in victory!
As Jesus gave thanks and broke the bread, it is in the breaking of the bread that brings forth multiplication and miracles
I began to renew my commitment with God. I took a step of faith and step into the fulltime ministry on 1st of June 2008 and till now i really really not regreting of doing it. I should have done it earlier!
Now the real adveture is about to begin.....
*** To Be continued....
